The last week has been an incredible haze. I cycled through detoxing; physical and emotional. I didn't feel present through it. It felt like my rational self left my body for a little while. My memories of the experience are birds eye view. Below was a fearful, panicked little girl. She needed attention, to be held, reassurance. She also needed to speak up and let people know what she needed.
I by all means am not romantacising or trying to turn my experience into one that was spiritual. I didn't enjoy a second of it. I still wish it didn't happen. It was frightening to see how easily the foundations that I spent so many years working on could crack so easily under a little pressure. I draw no definitive conclusion from the experience as of yet. Instead, each of these events teach me another level of authentic gratitude for the times that aren't this.
Another message I have received is to stop placing boundaries and rules on the healing process. Yes, to heal. But not to cease living until healed. Letting that sink in for a while. Now that I have found it difficult to leave the house this past month, I desperately wish I had spent more time out there.
Dress: Johansen Official (Australian designed and made)
Corset: Meshki (proving to be a very versatile piece)
Boots: Vera Moda Cowboy Boots
Sunglasses: Le Specs x Adam Selman
What messages have you been receiving lately? Would love to hear your musings.